I am homesick. Yes, for the generic American things like car-sized parking spaces, consideration for others, and green vistas, but also very specifically for my home in Pell City, Alabama.
Pell City is small, and it certainly cannot rival northern Virginia for all the opportunities provided (food, entertainment, etc.), but even after all this time, Alabama is where I get homesick for, not Virginia.
I crave its dark and its quiet. Years of living in cities with busy roads has conditioned me to street noise. But I don't notice that until I go back home. The lack of streetlights and and absence of continuous cars is quite noticeable, and I love it.
I long for the sounds from the lake--the long quacking of the ducks, the steady hum of the boat motors, and the soft "swish" sound of the tiny waves. Those are the sounds of my childhood.
I want to go pick vegetables in the garden and blueberries from Mr. Jack's bushes, to go eat fried catfish and shrimp at The Ark and barbecue pork from Fat Man's and get a sausage biscuit from Jack's, and slice fresh Chilton County peaches on top of BlueBell vanilla ice cream.
I want to go to St. Simon Peter Episcopal Church and thank all the sweet souls who always warmly welcome me back and who pray unceasingly for my family, and I want to visit Camp Winnataska and feel its joy and peace deep within in my soul.
I want to talk Auburn football with my dad and brother, go baby boy shopping with Shannon, play in the sprinkler with Avery, walk next door to my grandfather's house to chat about the mess that is Israel, and drink sweet tea on the back porch overlooking the lake with my mother. We are not fancy people who "go and do" lots of activities. Our favorite place to be is at home, together. And I miss that so much it hurts. (And so do my guys--Geoff and Liam love it almost as much as I do, and I know Sam will too once he's old enough to understand.)
I know I am a fortunate person. I have a loving, hard working husband and two healthy and happy boys. We get to see and do some pretty cool things thanks to our crazy life. Due to that, many may not understand my longing to get back to Alabama. How could it possibly compare to seeing the Christmas markets in Vienna, going wine tasting in Tuscany, or living a stone's throw from where Jesus was born and where he died? It can't.
But Alabama is my touchstone. And I can't wait to get back there again, whenever that may be.
Sunset over Logan Martin Lake
(courtesy of James Spann's FB page)